I'm Lost

I'm losing myself.

I don't know what I want.
I don't know what makes me happy now.
Oh, I even forgot when was the last time I laugh too much.
I don't know what I want to be next year.
Next next year.
Or year after next year.

I work hard.
So hard.
because...

Yes, I want to have a laptop.
I want a high-end cellphone.
I want a nice house somewhere in an exclusive village.
I want a cool car.
I want to go outside the country.
I want to travel around the world.
Of course.
It's everybody's dream.
Then what?

Why am I feeling lost?
What is something wrong?
Why am I....
Feeling not happy now?

It's like...
Something's missing...
What is missing?
What's missing.....

Oh. Yes.
I've got to run.